Just saying a quick hello!

Hello. Come visit! :)

No, not like the song.  I wish it were though, because that would be so much better.

I have way too many things to compare against right now.

1.  Move back home, or move far far away.

That pretty much makes the list infinite.

It's been great being home.  I've begun to realize how much I already have, and how much I appreciate it.  I strongly believe that whatever life brings me in these next few months, I'll give it my best shot.  I'm not afraid of moving away, meeting new people, or having time to myself.  I actually think I'll really enjoy it.

It's funny how much I've changed these past years.  I'm still the same person, yet more comfortable and happy.  I really enjoy this feeling, and I do go out of my way to feel this way.  Yes.  It can make some situations sticky, but I feel that I have every right to help people understand that.

Four years ago I met someone and said to myself,  "this is going to be interesting".  That's exactly the way it has been.  This person has done everything from making me feel like complete shit to bliss.  Sometimes I want to hate him, while other times I want to thank him.  Nonetheless, it's been confusing.  Right now, I feel like I should be thanking him...but I don't know if he deserves that.  I generally think I'm a nice guy, and that I'm real with everyone I meet even though I may be interacting differently.  I don't think I'm "calculated", "unromantic", or "dramatic".  These are the last things I want to be...and right now I'm focusing on removing those assumptions completely.  I think they see that.

But I'm not doing this for them.  I'm just ready to develop.  To grow up.  I just have to wait for my chance